Saturday, May 26, 2007

A lucid evening

When Mr.Hansen, asks John Nash, "Do you still see them?". Nash throws a look by his side and answers, "hmm. yea. I just choose to ignore them.". In reply, Hansen says, "They really haunted u though in the past".

And Nash simply says, "Nobody is haunted by their past, Hansen." Though i can claim i am one of the big fans of the movie, I couldnt really understand the insighful meaning of that.. atleast was not in a position to accept it immediately. And apparently i am realizing its insightfulness today.

Could just finish my quick workout( as i like to call it ;) ), and came to surf a little on net to my cubical. And interestingly, all the things i browsed today, showed me to be more positive, and enjoy the life to the fullest extent, and not to worry too much about any thing. I swear, I have not gone to all of them intentionally... they just happened. And feel, it happened definitely for some reason (sounds dramatic?). Once again realized that, the world is not definitely that bad place to be living. The surfings included, shiben's "Dont hate blog", Osho's philosophy which was again paradoxic(as i felt, or may be am too young to understand it.), Steev Jobs Stanford Commencement Speech(definitely worth watching. And its beyound inspiring.), and another inspiring video (Sunscreen, as it calls itself) every thing was so inspiring and touching. Feel definitely rejuvenated. Kudoz to net! without which, dumboos like me wouldnt have enjoyed as much. I hope, in a mundane vegetative life, such things always leave a mark and refill the spirits high. cool.. leaving home with the satisfaction that, added something good to my never ending education today as well. Actually did not have a right openion(though had, was not convincing i should say) on bloggin, slowly i seem to find a handful of incentives to blog(cant ignore, "you know who!"'s comments ;), apart from the other fillips). Must be leaving now, for it takes 15-20 mins to go by walk from CT to home..

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Blurred Character !

When i heard this... i saw it as another rhyming quote. i couldnt peep much interms of its meaning or its relavence in mundane life...and the quote is the well known this.

If money is lost, nothing is lost.
If health is lost, some thing is lost.
And if character is lost every thing is lost..(long time, my dad told me).

This makes much sense, even if am not a greatly matured guy...

But it brings in its own complications and blurs in its meaning, if i think a little more about it..
obviously i am referring to the last sentence, which in turn might effect the rest of the two.
Character! what actually it means. who defines it ? and what it stands for ! Obviously its a concept worth giving a thought. And my school inculcates a few qulities by teaching a few strong sayings such as "An education which can not build character is worthless".

And I find it a little confusing, if it as a concept related to a society to which the person belongs or not. Say otherwise, i.e. its defined absolutely, irrespective of the socitey the person belongs to. Then i can say that, Character is defined for each individual irrespective of the society. Is that defination the same for everybody ? or varies with person to person ? Even if its same or different for each individual, who decides it. well, say character is some thing that is defined by each individual to himself. i.e. he sets a set of principles to which he determines to cling to forever. It sounds convincing to a good extent, as it involves the concept of self satisfaction and retaining of self identity and also if its otherwise(set by sbd else), then that will be more of regulation-kind than of ethical. Then obviously the concept of Character paradoxic. Because, a characterless guy has lost his character(if you like to say so), in gaining self satisfaction, which infact could have been well in his own set of principles. Infact, from this scinario, hardly anyone can ever be a characterless fellow, because, one always retains his character according to his defination.. So from this definition, even a murderer, a rapist or a prostitute is full of character. And i would rather then give Health a bigger seat than to Character. However one of the hindu myths also supports(doesnt it?) it by saying, all the gods come to a common openion that a butcher(viz. Dharmaveda, if am not wrong), who performs his job to perfection without guilty, and considering it as his worship, is the ideal of human race.

Or say, its defined by a society, then it unmistakably varies from society to society. And say a guy moves from one society to another for a short period. So if he follows his own society's defination, he might well be crossing the defination set by the current society, or vice versa and ending up a characterless person. And to add to its complexity, character is one thing that if lost once, cant be regained. For example, say a guy from orthodoxic indian tradition goes to another extreme culture. Then eating beaf or having alcohol or roaming loosely.. should he treat that society's ppl as being slack ! Since now he is part of that community, he has every right to
participate in defining Character. you might say, well since he originally did not belong to that community, he has no right to impose his views on that community. ok.. Letz say thats right. But then, if he should mixup with the people over there, as if he finds nothing wrong with their actions ? if Yes, then he is committing self-deception, by playing two faces which i feel is the meanest. And if No, then he either has to alienate himself from the present society, or should try to change the society.. (extreme!). If he is alienating himself, i feel the quote which we are referring to itself is hiding some thing remarkable. Because, when he is estranging himself, he is loosing most of the things (may be every thing except for self-satisfaction, which eventually would fade), in trying to retain his character !! And he has no right or responsibility to change the society as they are well with in the constraints and principles (defined by their own). And say as and when a person moves to a society he keeps changing himself to that society's habbits and retain his character according to the second argument. Somehow, it doesnt satisfies me,(despite of the saying, 'Be a roman, when you are in Rome') as then the meaning of Character is more of mechanical than moral and more, he is loosing self identity, which is a byproduct of the concept Character..

Which all boils down to the question if one should have a proper openion, respect and definition(more importantly) towards Character ?

So now, "the splinter in my mind driving me mad" is should one accept a fellow who is
characterless (according to one's definition) ! (And ofcourse, there is an incident which triggered this train of thoughts, which unfortunately can not be publicized. Since, there is another saying which says "if a word crosses lip, its capable of crossing the planet", i keep my mouth absolutely shut (did actually I !?) and worse, it was none of my business even to commen on that. However i felt, there was a great deal to be learnt from.)
And then i convince myself with the answer NO. a simple no. As, i see no point in contradicting my sub-concious mind committig self-deception, accepting somebody else's wrong act(from my perspective) as right(as his frame of reference claims)... I belive, i fail to fine a satisfying point to convince myself otherwise.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Some good SW quotes

UNIX is simple. But It just needs a genius to understand its simplicity.

--Dennis Ritchie
Before software can be reusable, it first has to be usable!!
--Ralph Johnson


Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment.
--Fred Brooks


Theory is when you know something, but it doesn't work. Practice is when something works, but you don't know why it works. Programmers combine theory and practice: Nothing works and they don't know why.

It's hard enough to find an error in your code when you're looking for it; it's even harder when you've assumed your code is error-free!!! (so true)
-Steve McConnell Code Complete



If builders built buildings the way programmers wrote programs, then the first woodpecker that came along would destroy civilisation.
-Gerald Weinberg

The Six Phases of a Project:

Enthusiasm
Disillusionment
Panic
Search for the Guilty
Punishment of the Innocent
Praise for non-participants


Good code is its own best documentation. As you're about to add a comment, ask yourself, 'How can I improve the code so that this comment isn't needed?' Improve the code and then document it to make it even clearer.
--Steve McConnell Code Complete


The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligents are full of doubt.
--Bertrand Russell

Thursday, May 03, 2007

(U/P)G :-?

like to be Travis in 'The rundown'. like to choose the option, only when have no other go, and that too possibly the option i dont have... (when Beck says, option A, u do it. and option B, i make u. Travis answers, aaa.. i would take option C.. :) like that..) And ofcourse, the fate answers the way, Beck did most of the times...

So feel, the time has come to "make a choice" between being a post graduate or remaining a graduate. have absolutely no idea which one is right at this point. but am not really worried which way am going to take. because, am sure will learn some thing for having chosen one and leaving or missing(i should say) the other... my brother himself, suggests me to go for MS some times and warns me not to think about it on some other times. I can understand why he says so.. he juss wants me to be happy always.. And frenz say, they are happy with MS lives, but sound they are actually working their ass off.. which is the worst nightmare i can even dream of.

As always, though i listen and care for others suggestions, the final decision will be mine. So giving a little thought to that these days. My only intension for considering on going abroad is that, i can learn some thing more about the world i have only heard of and have never tasted. in terms of the culture, the ppl dealing with situations, and how they think.. aa, quite weird view.. i know. Atleast as of now, have absolutely no intension of saving or earning. Ofcourse, if am awarded a masters degree and some money in addition, i dont mind taking them too :P

But then there are reasons for thinking about not going for MS. first and foremost reason i should admit is ... i have to give GRE.. no man, i feel am too old to prepare for an exam and then write and crave for recos and then work like hell for 2 years(most likely), and then start 'searching for a job' !!.. hmff, it reminds of the joke in Dil. (kalu meeda kaleskuni batakadam).
feel am a guy whose life style suits more to india(frankly speaking, country-side) than US. recently when i was going to Koti from my room, this thing happened. as usual i was standing with luggage, as i suck at grabbing the seat when others crave for it. And was holding the support bar on the top. ofcourse, many more were holding that too.. And suddenly it came off from the first ring. so all the people holding it got a jerk, n everybody could realize what happened. the first guy looked at the guy next to him and the ppl in the row and threw a smyle. interestingly the second did the same and then the third.. and that made me smyle.. out of curiousity i turned back to check what others behind me were doing.. everybody was smyling.. LOL...actually i continuted the tradition.. And we all pushed the rod right into the ring laughing, despite of the shakes of that 'Erra bus'. we felt triumph. Then i began to wonder suddenly, what is it that you want in life. what truly is satisfaction.. sounds bullcrap doesnt it.. not quite. hmm, still i felt, am going to miss something, which i cant actually picturise, if i fly now. is it really worth that.. i heard most of the ppl feel alienated once they reach there... and i dont see any point going for a life which is that. What am i ultimately achieving out of it, ofcourse the other-me says immediately "exposure", "knowledge" and many big words are there answering .. but i shut him for a while. And have recently encountered the scariest thing in my life, which i believe to some extent, are because of the "exposure" and more "education" than what you need....


however nobody seems to belive me, even myself on my plans on MS. because, i was once in a state that, even a trace of the thought of going for further studies would have killed me. And today, i atleast dont mind considering about considering on doing MS. let me see how Beck answers finally..

Eduta neeve, Yedaloona neeve..

Recently, am stuck with Ilayaraja's music. i am lost in his deep world of music. i was one of those who looked his music as draggy and hopeless. And used to think, it is missing things that a quality music should posess. And always used to ignore comments from fans of Ilaya on Ilaya or AR. and never considered him as a great composer. But the time has changed... am "beginning to believe that" he is The one. ah, simpley heart breaking music. His music mixed with Aatryea's lyrics and SP's voice.. Ahhh, juss the time passes away. And the mood drastically changes. in fact, i am thinking twice before listening to them these days. especially Abhinandana etc. Ofcourse, AR is always there to pull me back into my high spirits. Havent heard too many of Ilaya's compositions yet, still I feel, i am going to end up listening to his music exclusively at some point in life. Unfortunately it seems, Ilaya has almost ceased composing and SP has stopped singing and Aatreya.. ! Hmm, aina manademundi .. i dont mind listening to the same song 100 times non-stop. Trying to gather more info on thier combination.. May be am responding too much to his music or I am crazy (as is likely the case, when i like sth), beginning to think should control my heart beats while listening to it, and not get carried away too much.. :) Else might endup a dead man or atleast endup demented. So summary is hail AR... And listen to Devi sri's mass music more often, to be in ur normal state..

Initial days at "Prophecy"

Things with my employer are going pretty smooth. Way easier than, the way i thought they would. getting an interview call was a sudden surprise. Though my life time goal of getting a call from Morpheus is not fulfilled "yet", atleast could get a call from Oracle. And attending the interviews and getting the offer letter and showing fin*** (as keerthi describes) to prev company, every thing had been great..
however, was not sure, if the quality and/or the quantity of the work might add to my tension, and make me lost in my work-world. But the things in here are cool and the team am into is much more cool. I was interviewed and recruited into a team which had around 20-30 people in CT, hyderabad. The interviewer was the manager of that group and he recruited me to have me in that group, as he felt i was good at c,sql. But in the last minute "some thing" happened and i happen to fall in my current team which has interestingly only 5 people (including my manager). Actually was a little anxious about the team's diversity interms of geographical locations, languages etc. But it turned out to be the team with damn cool ppl. out of 5, 2 are at hyderabad, 2 at bangalore and my manager sitting at Santa Monica , CA.
Apart from technical knowledge, i am finding alot to learn in terms of how to be an effective manager, an effective project lead ! and how to make things work etc. my lead is the best company i've found here. May be because of his presence, every thing else is looking so cool. And their technical skills added to their friendly nature, making me work cooler and better. Their encouraging words and their responsibility grabbing nature is what setting my view, about my current employer, stand apart from my previous emploer, so called Global leader in IT. Apparently, the team is happy with my presence as well. Even the smallest of the things accomplished are priased to a great extent. And the things not done are ignored, saying.. "no worries, that was not expected any way. we will see it later" and the like. only rating at the end of year will show what they actually mean :). Still i juss wanted a life like this. And i sense definately positive openion on my work, which i am happy about.
These things are highly motivating me to stick to way the life is running, and demotivating me to go for further studies. let me see, how the things will go soon. I can never believe my mind, it might ask me to do sth else tomorrow. so making myself ready to takeup any thing.. actually am writing this post, during my work hours... oops, i should be working on RT data migration, forgot. nevermind, dont know how to do that. a fair excuse.. right !