(U/P)G :-?

like to be Travis in 'The rundown'. like to choose the option, only when have no other go, and that too possibly the option i dont have... (when Beck says, option A, u do it. and option B, i make u. Travis answers, aaa.. i would take option C.. :) like that..) And ofcourse, the fate answers the way, Beck did most of the times...

So feel, the time has come to "make a choice" between being a post graduate or remaining a graduate. have absolutely no idea which one is right at this point. but am not really worried which way am going to take. because, am sure will learn some thing for having chosen one and leaving or missing(i should say) the other... my brother himself, suggests me to go for MS some times and warns me not to think about it on some other times. I can understand why he says so.. he juss wants me to be happy always.. And frenz say, they are happy with MS lives, but sound they are actually working their ass off.. which is the worst nightmare i can even dream of.

As always, though i listen and care for others suggestions, the final decision will be mine. So giving a little thought to that these days. My only intension for considering on going abroad is that, i can learn some thing more about the world i have only heard of and have never tasted. in terms of the culture, the ppl dealing with situations, and how they think.. aa, quite weird view.. i know. Atleast as of now, have absolutely no intension of saving or earning. Ofcourse, if am awarded a masters degree and some money in addition, i dont mind taking them too :P

But then there are reasons for thinking about not going for MS. first and foremost reason i should admit is ... i have to give GRE.. no man, i feel am too old to prepare for an exam and then write and crave for recos and then work like hell for 2 years(most likely), and then start 'searching for a job' !!.. hmff, it reminds of the joke in Dil. (kalu meeda kaleskuni batakadam).
feel am a guy whose life style suits more to india(frankly speaking, country-side) than US. recently when i was going to Koti from my room, this thing happened. as usual i was standing with luggage, as i suck at grabbing the seat when others crave for it. And was holding the support bar on the top. ofcourse, many more were holding that too.. And suddenly it came off from the first ring. so all the people holding it got a jerk, n everybody could realize what happened. the first guy looked at the guy next to him and the ppl in the row and threw a smyle. interestingly the second did the same and then the third.. and that made me smyle.. out of curiousity i turned back to check what others behind me were doing.. everybody was smyling.. LOL...actually i continuted the tradition.. And we all pushed the rod right into the ring laughing, despite of the shakes of that 'Erra bus'. we felt triumph. Then i began to wonder suddenly, what is it that you want in life. what truly is satisfaction.. sounds bullcrap doesnt it.. not quite. hmm, still i felt, am going to miss something, which i cant actually picturise, if i fly now. is it really worth that.. i heard most of the ppl feel alienated once they reach there... and i dont see any point going for a life which is that. What am i ultimately achieving out of it, ofcourse the other-me says immediately "exposure", "knowledge" and many big words are there answering .. but i shut him for a while. And have recently encountered the scariest thing in my life, which i believe to some extent, are because of the "exposure" and more "education" than what you need....


however nobody seems to belive me, even myself on my plans on MS. because, i was once in a state that, even a trace of the thought of going for further studies would have killed me. And today, i atleast dont mind considering about considering on doing MS. let me see how Beck answers finally..